I'm not doing this for me. I'm doing this for Erin - one of my bestest friends!
She just submitted a song to the American Idol Songwriting competition.
The winner of AI 2007 will sing the song w/ the most votes on the season finale.
Erin is one of my bestest friends - we went to SUNY Purchase together! And I love her dearly! She has busted her arse for the last 2.5 years touching up her cd. I did her cd cover - I am her graphic designer!
I realize that asking most of you to do anything related to american idol equates sacrificing your first born to the devil, but think about it this way well y'all are friends with me and Erin is my friend and you may not know her - but she rocks!... She can win this! Do it for me!
I am humbly asking if y'all will please register to vote on http://songwriter.americanidol.com and vote for Erin Michelle Kuch's song "close."
Spread the word to your family, your friends, your enemies, and your co-workers.
Most of us who know Erin believe that Erin's true calling in life is her songwriting. Well, now's crunch time.
Please, Please, Please!
Thanks in advance.
P.S Check out Erin's Myspace Music Page to hear some of her stuff and see the album cover I did for Beneath the Curtain - her cd!
Thursday, April 12, 2007
Will I ever reach my goal?
I feel so frustrated!!! I feel Like a big fat failure!!! WTF!!!!!
MOST of my surgery buddies have reached their goal weights and I am super duper happy for them. But, it makes me alittle sad that I still have so far to go. . I try to remind myself that I weighed 392 lbs pre - op and most of my friends were never that heavy and I can't compare myself to other WLS people - hell I can't comapre myslef to other people! I am me and I love me! But, I want to be me at goal!!!!
I want to be successful with my WLS!!! I think part of me thought I would get to my goal in one year - but loosing over 200 lbs in one year was/ is unrealistic. I lost 144lbs in my first post - op, that is amazing. Why is that not good enough? I know why I got fat in the first place and am working on my inner demons with my therapist - I am starting to feel whole again and like the Marla I was before igot sick and my grandmother died - I am becoming me again! Like coming home again! I am happy. I am just scared that I won't reach my goal. Will it ever happen for me. I am doing my aprt and working with my tool. There is always room for improvement . I have the power to make my dreams come true and I didn't have this surgery to be satisfied with where I am - I WILL REACH MY GOAL!!!!!!
MOST of my surgery buddies have reached their goal weights and I am super duper happy for them. But, it makes me alittle sad that I still have so far to go. . I try to remind myself that I weighed 392 lbs pre - op and most of my friends were never that heavy and I can't compare myself to other WLS people - hell I can't comapre myslef to other people! I am me and I love me! But, I want to be me at goal!!!!
I want to be successful with my WLS!!! I think part of me thought I would get to my goal in one year - but loosing over 200 lbs in one year was/ is unrealistic. I lost 144lbs in my first post - op, that is amazing. Why is that not good enough? I know why I got fat in the first place and am working on my inner demons with my therapist - I am starting to feel whole again and like the Marla I was before igot sick and my grandmother died - I am becoming me again! Like coming home again! I am happy. I am just scared that I won't reach my goal. Will it ever happen for me. I am doing my aprt and working with my tool. There is always room for improvement . I have the power to make my dreams come true and I didn't have this surgery to be satisfied with where I am - I WILL REACH MY GOAL!!!!!!
Still Here...
I used to blog all the time - WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED????
There is lots to catch up on. My life is like a whirlwind sometimes and very calm others. Ethan is graduating college next month. How is that possible. I remember the day he was born and what I was doing like it was yesterday!
I have lost a butt load of weight and look and feel completely different. Of course - I am still Marla and there are people and things that piss me off - But i am still happy. And enjoying living life. This is one crazy rollercoaster that I am not getting off. They will have to pry the safety bar from my cold dead hands!
I need to be posting more regularly with what is going on in my life!!!!! There is lots. Look for another post tonight! I am going to try to post everyday. I need a place to ramble. Does anyone actually read Former Fat Girl - or am I just talknig to myslef. Oh well, I am good at keeping myself entertained.
I see my surgeon next week for follow - up for gastric bypass and gallbladder removal. _ One year and 3 months post - op - when did that happen? Will I ever get to goal, yes. Gosh it is so damn frustrating. But, having been 392 lbs - I can't expect it to happen over night.
There is lots to catch up on. My life is like a whirlwind sometimes and very calm others. Ethan is graduating college next month. How is that possible. I remember the day he was born and what I was doing like it was yesterday!
I have lost a butt load of weight and look and feel completely different. Of course - I am still Marla and there are people and things that piss me off - But i am still happy. And enjoying living life. This is one crazy rollercoaster that I am not getting off. They will have to pry the safety bar from my cold dead hands!
I need to be posting more regularly with what is going on in my life!!!!! There is lots. Look for another post tonight! I am going to try to post everyday. I need a place to ramble. Does anyone actually read Former Fat Girl - or am I just talknig to myslef. Oh well, I am good at keeping myself entertained.
I see my surgeon next week for follow - up for gastric bypass and gallbladder removal. _ One year and 3 months post - op - when did that happen? Will I ever get to goal, yes. Gosh it is so damn frustrating. But, having been 392 lbs - I can't expect it to happen over night.
Wednesday, February 28, 2007
Travelin' Fool
January 12 - 14, 2007
Went to Georgia to visit my soul sister Lucinda! GOOD TIMES! Can't wait to go back!
February 16 - 19, 2007
Went to Kentucky to visit my wicked good friend Beth! OH MY GOSH DID WE HAVE A BLAST! And I passed the test to visit again. Beth so wants me to come back - for more fun! Looking forward to it!
I love both of you tons! You both are just amazing - I am so lucky to call you both FRIEND!
Went to Georgia to visit my soul sister Lucinda! GOOD TIMES! Can't wait to go back!
February 16 - 19, 2007
Went to Kentucky to visit my wicked good friend Beth! OH MY GOSH DID WE HAVE A BLAST! And I passed the test to visit again. Beth so wants me to come back - for more fun! Looking forward to it!
I love both of you tons! You both are just amazing - I am so lucky to call you both FRIEND!
I am back!
Bet y'all were wondering what happened to me & missed me so much. I can't believe I haven't blogged in so long. I have to so much to update y'all on so this will be the short version with more to follow later.
~Here is the list version of what has happened since my last post~
• I had my 1 year surgiversary
• Turned 27 - I AM 27 (bizarre)
• Travelin fool - been to Connecticut, New York City, Georgia & Kentucky - Gosh I love my friends! (I past the test for a second visit with both Lucinda & Beth W. - SWEET, I can't wait)
• My brother turned 22
• I got a comission to do a large scale painting for a family friend
• I have lost 144lbs since my Weight Loss Surgery
• Life is good - trying to deal with my suprressed inner demons that caused me to eat. But, I am dealing and moving forward. I am too important to ever give up on myself again.
Nuthin' is worse then chemo!
~Here is the list version of what has happened since my last post~
• I had my 1 year surgiversary
• Turned 27 - I AM 27 (bizarre)
• Travelin fool - been to Connecticut, New York City, Georgia & Kentucky - Gosh I love my friends! (I past the test for a second visit with both Lucinda & Beth W. - SWEET, I can't wait)
• My brother turned 22
• I got a comission to do a large scale painting for a family friend
• I have lost 144lbs since my Weight Loss Surgery
• Life is good - trying to deal with my suprressed inner demons that caused me to eat. But, I am dealing and moving forward. I am too important to ever give up on myself again.
Nuthin' is worse then chemo!
Saturday, December 23, 2006
I am still obese... sweet!
I decided to find a BMI (Body Mass Index) Calulator and see where I stood. Wait a tick... I am standing right here.
So, of course I have to compare FAT GIRL to FORMER FAT GIRL. Here are the results...
FAT GIRL - Former Marla
5' 3"
392lbs
BMI - 69.4 (uber/ super Morbidly obese)
FORMER FAT GIRL - Marla
5' 3"
236lbs
BMI - 41.8 (Obese)
No more uber in my BMI classification. Sooo sad. I am still uber! Will always be uber! Just with a lower BMI. Marla is uber-ific! I have gone from wicked super duper fat to PHAT. Kickass! 106 lbs left to loose. Bring it on. I am so gonna get to goal. I rock!
So, of course I have to compare FAT GIRL to FORMER FAT GIRL. Here are the results...
FAT GIRL - Former Marla
5' 3"
392lbs
BMI - 69.4 (uber/ super Morbidly obese)
FORMER FAT GIRL - Marla
5' 3"
236lbs
BMI - 41.8 (Obese)
No more uber in my BMI classification. Sooo sad. I am still uber! Will always be uber! Just with a lower BMI. Marla is uber-ific! I have gone from wicked super duper fat to PHAT. Kickass! 106 lbs left to loose. Bring it on. I am so gonna get to goal. I rock!
Wednesday, December 20, 2006
What's in a Name...
"O! be some other name: What's in a name? That which we call a rose by any other name would smell as sweet" ~William Shakespeare (Romeo & Juliet)
So, I have come to realize just how many nicknames I really have. My parents weren't into names that had built in variations - ie Michael (Mike). Marla is unique. And it suits me. Even with my middle name Erin. It works. I never really had nicknames growing up. The occasional Mar, but that was about it.
So I was thinking about all my nicknames the other day. I think it is great! I feel so loved that lots of different people have bestowed so many nicknames upon me.
Family nicknames... Marla Muffin, Marla herring (Thanks Grandpa), Bunny, Bubelah, Shanya Punim (pretty face), and of course - MIGGLAH! Ethan started calling me Migglah while I was in college. It stuck! It was originally spelled Miglah. I added the second g as a little silent tribute to Grandma Gladys. Cause she is always with me!
In some circles of friends I am... M - Dizzle 2 (Molly is M - Dizzle 1), M - Dawg, Mar, MarMar, Marlsie, Mo, Marla Mo, Mo Money, Thing 2 (Molly & Lucinda are both respectively Thing 1), Lovie, Sweetness, Sweet Cheecks, Schmoushie, Migglah
Within The Navel Orange Club (my local WLS girls) I am... Baby Orange or Princess Baby Orange
In The Neighborhood on LivingAfterWLS I am... Baby Goddess, Baby Girl, Marlotta, Chickie, Twinlet, Little One, MissMarla, Thing 2, Miss Fancy Panties
Camp Kingsmont Summer 1992... I inherited a nickname that I can't shake and I am rather proud of it actually. Every once in awhile it resurfaces for just the shear joy it brings. It was the start of the night time activity - All camp capture the flag..; boy vs. girls!
Well my friends and I were forming our plan on the main road. They were planning on going through the woods up to boys hill! I was gonna place myself where the main road and the rock/dirt road intersected. Off we went. At the last minute, I wanted to go into the woods too. And took off running to catch up with my friends. I tripped and fell and skidded accross and over the rocks. I sliced my legs good. i was more concerned with my bad arm. It was fine as I had been wearing my windbreaker!
My legs were gushing blood, so my counselor Steph took me to the infermary. Norma was concerned about my arm and deemed it fine but wanted me to ice it. Then she was about to let me go when i remembered I was gushing blood From my legs. She hadn't seen it! Well, that was fun. My fav. guy counselor Guffy was there too. He took one look at my legs and said, "Felldown what were you thinking." And it stuck... I am still called Felldown.
See Guffy knew my last name & well Felldown works. Marla Felldown. Trust me. Those of you that know my last name will agree. I was Marla Felldown or Fell down for 4 summers and Mom still says it to me sometimes! I love being me - Migglah Felldown!
So, I have come to realize just how many nicknames I really have. My parents weren't into names that had built in variations - ie Michael (Mike). Marla is unique. And it suits me. Even with my middle name Erin. It works. I never really had nicknames growing up. The occasional Mar, but that was about it.
So I was thinking about all my nicknames the other day. I think it is great! I feel so loved that lots of different people have bestowed so many nicknames upon me.
Family nicknames... Marla Muffin, Marla herring (Thanks Grandpa), Bunny, Bubelah, Shanya Punim (pretty face), and of course - MIGGLAH! Ethan started calling me Migglah while I was in college. It stuck! It was originally spelled Miglah. I added the second g as a little silent tribute to Grandma Gladys. Cause she is always with me!
In some circles of friends I am... M - Dizzle 2 (Molly is M - Dizzle 1), M - Dawg, Mar, MarMar, Marlsie, Mo, Marla Mo, Mo Money, Thing 2 (Molly & Lucinda are both respectively Thing 1), Lovie, Sweetness, Sweet Cheecks, Schmoushie, Migglah
Within The Navel Orange Club (my local WLS girls) I am... Baby Orange or Princess Baby Orange
In The Neighborhood on LivingAfterWLS I am... Baby Goddess, Baby Girl, Marlotta, Chickie, Twinlet, Little One, MissMarla, Thing 2, Miss Fancy Panties
Camp Kingsmont Summer 1992... I inherited a nickname that I can't shake and I am rather proud of it actually. Every once in awhile it resurfaces for just the shear joy it brings. It was the start of the night time activity - All camp capture the flag..; boy vs. girls!
Well my friends and I were forming our plan on the main road. They were planning on going through the woods up to boys hill! I was gonna place myself where the main road and the rock/dirt road intersected. Off we went. At the last minute, I wanted to go into the woods too. And took off running to catch up with my friends. I tripped and fell and skidded accross and over the rocks. I sliced my legs good. i was more concerned with my bad arm. It was fine as I had been wearing my windbreaker!
My legs were gushing blood, so my counselor Steph took me to the infermary. Norma was concerned about my arm and deemed it fine but wanted me to ice it. Then she was about to let me go when i remembered I was gushing blood From my legs. She hadn't seen it! Well, that was fun. My fav. guy counselor Guffy was there too. He took one look at my legs and said, "Felldown what were you thinking." And it stuck... I am still called Felldown.
See Guffy knew my last name & well Felldown works. Marla Felldown. Trust me. Those of you that know my last name will agree. I was Marla Felldown or Fell down for 4 summers and Mom still says it to me sometimes! I love being me - Migglah Felldown!
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